In The Circle

In The Circle

I originally drew this in the psych hospital for an art therapy project. That was back in 2014 when I survived a serious suicide attempt. The goal of this project was to listen to the comforting sounds of water, nature, and some comforting meditational music. We were given a circle and told to draw something in it related to the healing sounds.

At the time, I was listening to a lot of music from the lesser-known band, Hungry Lucy. Their song ‘In The Circle’ ( popped into my head. So it inspired the title of this since being enclosed in a circle felt safe to me. Kind of like a safety bubble. The waterfall flowing in from the outside was meant to show how my intense emotions would always find their way in, disturbing my peace.

The art therapist was not happy with my drawing. She told me my interpretation of my art was wrong and that water is healing. It’s healing rushing in help me.

I’m not sure why she felt the need to tell me the meaning of my own drawing, but it was stressful and no matter how many times I told her she was wrong, she argued with me. I’ve always had trouble with art teachers, my worst experience being in high school. My art teacher then destroyed my art with her words, and as a teenager, I was really affected by it. She often told me my art was wrong, no good, and that I was a frustrating student to have. I had a passion for art and I just wanted to draw what I loved, but she absolutely hated my style. She once compared me to my abuser and I stopped making art for her for the rest of the year, failing art class.

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